A NEW START

Hello and let me reintroduce myself. I'm the girl who used to run this blog. I say 'used to', as I'm also the girl who gave up on her so called blog when the going got a bit too tough last year. I hate to admit I'm a quitter, but, that's exactly what I did when I let myself suffocate under the strain of University. I thought, "Yeah, yeah, everyone gets stressed in their final year." And it's true, stress may as well be included as a mandatory module choice for all Uni students. I just didn't expect it to hit me so hard. I certainly didn't expect to be bed bound in pyjamas for days on end, reclusive to anything other than takeaway pizza (I could have given Stig of the dump a good rivalry). Numerous times I was done and ready to call it a day on my degree, thinking a career as a regular bed dweller and Netflix watcher would suffice better. 

But I couldn't and I wouldn't.

I couldn't give up three years of hard work. I didn't always get the grades I wanted in my modules, but at the end of it all, it was my university experience and it was something I had accomplished on my own. I wouldn't give up because I knew deep down that the stress I had inundated myself with was the result of just wanting to succeed. At the time, I felt ashamed that I couldn't juggle this blog with my studies and social life. But now, looking back, I know it was for the best. Surely one or the other would have suffered had I separated my attention out unevenly. So here I am, a newly graduated student with a 2:1 degree in English Language and Literature, aware of the fact that I may 

get stressed and have to take a step back at times. But that doesn't mean I'm a quitter or a failure. I've shown I'm capable of tackling my stressful degree and now I turn my attention to blogging once again. I'm just a normal 21 year old girl looking to make her mark in this ever expanding online presence. I'm sure I'll hit bumps in the road this coming year when I work out what to do with my future. But at the bottom of it all, I'm allowed to take things slow, to workout my next move in my own time and there's no shame in that.

         Natalie x